What is the meaning of hopelessness?

Was it								or is it that now
when it was							– now, that it
at first								is much less –
in presence							it has itself 
already								become
too much						       not enough
because							        because
all that could ever be			                all that is
for there –							there for
against it –							instead –
was never							against it – has
going to be							in-stead become 
enough?						       too much?

something that had always let me get away with something better
than what-ever had so far
for some Reason
for some reason now
is not working anymore

is this the sign of the floor
after a flawed start?

or is “the floor” in any final sense
always already signal
of a flaw running much deeper than just that?